This might hurt/ It's not safe/ But I know that I've gotta make a change/ I don't care/ If I break/ At least I'll be feeling something/ 'Cause just ok/ Is not enough/ Help me fight through the nothingness of life

I don't wanna go through the motions/ I don't wanna go one more day/ Without Your all consuming passion inside of me/ I don't wanna spend my whole life/ asking/ What if I had given everything?/ Instead of going through the motions

No regrets/ Not this time/ I'm gonna let my heart defeat my mind/ Let Your love
Make me whole/ I think I'm finally feeling something

Take me all the way
"The Motions" by Mathew West

I have listened to this song so many times, and i listen and hear the words but until now it has not sunk in. I have lived my life for God my whole life, but i haven't given Him my whole life. I haven't given Him my everything. I have said I have in the past but really i haven't. it's not easy, and it's not going to be easy, but certain events have happened in my life and i have experienced different events this summer and i seriously want to go to that next level with God. i do not want to be content anymore. i don't want to just go through the motions at church. I want to make a difference in this world for God. a real difference. I want to get to the point in my life where people don't have to know me to know i live my life for God.

I have this yearning inside of me. I want to know God, and be completely engulfed in Him SO bad! I want all of God i can get. It will never be enough. I wish you could feel this tug on my heart that just yearns for God, and His love and peace, and comfort. I want to be moving on a daily basis in His Holy Spirit. I want to have that connection.I want God to take me all the way!! I want my life to be more then the motions, or the right words. In the beginning of August i went to War Week which was a week long missions trip to Detroit, MI. We did so much there, but what i will never forget was during worship or prayer, or the service i could FEEL God, EVERYWHERE! i would go the bathroom, help one of my girls out no matter where we went, we could not escape it. It was AMAZING! We had about an hour prayer meeting every morning, the worship could have gone on forever. The Holy Spirit was there. i could feel Him moving, and changing lives. I went after God there like i never have before, and i don't want to lose that. Since i have gotten back and i have started to read my bible on more of a consistence basis. I have been praying daily, going to the prayer meetings at church. I want to get as much of God as i can. My heart feels like is going to explode. i have never wanted something more, and have been willing to go after something more then i am right now.

I don't know if this makes any sense. but i can feel something coming. I know that God wont let me down. As long as i keep seeking Him, and pushing to go further God will meet me here.
He is my everything. and i want so much more of Him!!!

I'm the one with two left feet,/ standing on a lonely street,/ I can't even walk a straight line./ And every time you look at me,/ I'm spinning like an autumn leaf,
Bound to hit bottom some time.
[bridge]
Where would I be without someone to save me,/ Someone who won't let me fall?
[chorus]
You are everything that I live for,/ Everything that I can't believe is happening
You're standing right in front of me,/ With arms wide open, all I know
Is everyday is filled with hope/ 'Cause You are everything that I breathe for,
And I can't help but breathe You in, and breathe again,/Feeling all this life within, every single beat of my heart.

I'm the one with big mistakes, big regrets,/ And bigger breaks than I'd ever care to confess./ Ah, but You're the one who looks at me/ And sees what I was meant to be,/ More than just a beautiful mess.
[bridge]
[chorus]

You're everything good in my life,/ Everything honest and true./ And all of those stars hanging up in the sky/ Could never shine brighter than You.
"You are Everything" Matthew West