The tears haven't come yet, but i know they will. I think i'm still numb. Still in shock. It's only been two weeks since you took it from me, something i wanted to keep until the time was right. You took advantage of a situation. and now i haven't even heard from you. That's okay though. It just shows what kind of person you are. I'm better off without you. They've been telling me that for months, but i guess i had to learn the hard way. I wish i had listened to the various people's advise but i didn't. Now all i can do is turn to God and He will heal and put back together what you broke. I'm not going to hate you, that isn't right even though that is probablly what you deserve. I'm going to forgive you, and move on with my life. i wont get over this for a long time, but God is my stregnth and He will carry me through this. I hope to never see you again, i don't want to see your face ever again. i don't want to hear your voice ever again. I pray to God that the memory will leave soon. You did it, you broke me. But i wont be broken for long. God will heal me and send more people into my life to help pick up the pieces.

This past week has been very long. I made a choice that i can't take back, and it will forever shape who i am becoming. Part of me wishes i could take it back, but i know i can't so i just have to keep moving forward. Right now is when i need God's grace, mercy and love the most.