One year

March 22- 23, 2007.
Two days of my life that i will never forget.
Thursday i was ready to walk away from God, give up.
I didn’t want to keep going, it didn’t seem worth it.
but then i got the phone call...Cassie had been hit.
it was unreal, but we all knew Cas, she was strong she would make it.
The last news i heard before i "went to bed" that night was
"She isn’t out of the blue, or red, but she should be just fine."
I woke up, got ready for school,
and as soon as school got out Bethany and I were going to go see Cassie at the hospital.
We didn’t get to make that trip up, it was to late.
Riding the bus to school i got the call....
she hadn’t made it....
-Cassandra Theodore Merca-
but to me, just Cassie.
On March 23, 2007 a wonderful young woman of God was taken from us. We all agree it was to early, but God had other plans. I know everyone wants to say how unique they are, but Cassie truly was. She loved with her whole heart. She sought after God like i have never seen in a person her age before. She cared for everyone. She was the shoulder to cry on, the hug you needed, and the person who always had the words to say. She told you what was on her mind. She told you what you needed to hear. She made mistakes, tons of them and she would be the first to admit it. She wasn’t perfect, far from it actually but the difference was she always strove towards holiness. She had such an anointing on her life. God used her in so many ways. Her life wasn’t about her at all. It was ALL about God and His plan for her life, and showing the world to God.
She always fallowed her heart, and never gave up. She started to pave the way for Stone Crew Ministries.
No one will ever forget that girl’s eyes. or her smile.
Her laugh brought light into the darkness.
She had a voice of an angel.
She used all of her talents to worship God. whether that was singing, playing the drums, swimming, playing water polo or her best talent of all just talking.
Cassie’s last year at Fine Arts she sang, "Do They See Jesus In Me?"
she did an amazing job. but when people told her that she got mad.
She didn’t want it to be about her, she sang that song for God and God alone. She didn’t want the credit.
She was a daughter, sister, cousin, niece, leader, but most of all she was a friend.
Cassie was i think the strongest person i have ever met!!
&& not just in the physical sense of that
She was strong all around!!

I love Cassie so much. She has forever impacted so many people’s lives. Cassie, you will never be forgotten.

Losing Cassie was and still is one of the hardest things i have ever experienced.
When she died she took a part of me with her.
Although she was younger then me, i looked up to her.
She was always seeking God.
I wanted passion like her.
She is the one we would all go to tomorrow.
But she isn’t here...
I still look around youth some nights or during Sunday school
and expect to see her walking in.
Or i’ll look into the drums area and expect to see her smiling face looking out.
It hurts not having her here,
more then most people will ever be able to understand.
Since March 23, 2007 there hasn’t been a day that i have not thought about her, missed her, loved her....
At the age of 15, Cassie impacted more lives then most people will in their WHOLE life.

Tomorrow Cassie will have been gone one whole year,
and to be completely honest i do not know if i am ready for that.
I remember every detail about that week like it happened yesterday.


Cassie, never really died. i mean yes physically she died, and spiritually she is in heaven,
but Cassie lives in our memories of her,
in the stories we tell people.
Cassie will never be forgotten.
and always be loved.

I miss Cassie so much.
i really really do.
i learned so much from her.

"A million times we’ve needed you. A million times we’ve cried. If love alone could save you, you never would have died. In life we loved you dearly, in death we love you still. In our hearts you hold a place no one else will ever fill...it broke our hearts to lose you...but you didn’t go alone, part of us went with you...the day God took you home."

" … Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed" (Psalm 139:6).

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither things present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height or depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:38-39)