Tiredness/Feed my Starving Children

I can not even explain to you the amount of exhaustion i have been
experiencing recently. and i could not even explain to you why.
i am sleeping, A LOT! but i always still seem to be tired.
My dad make fun of me for it all the time. "when i was a teenager
i never needed sleep."
My headaches are back and so is my back pain. I'm not angry
at God, but I thought it was all gone! I had a good period of
time there where my back did not hurt. I could live a "normal"
life of not having my back hurt to the extent of not even being
able to find one position, sitting or laying, that did not hurt.
We went to Feed My Starving Children on Monday and I was
seemingly okay that whole time we were there, and even at the
mall my back did not hurt, but when we were on the way home,
on the bus, o my goodness!! I could not sit down, or stand up,
or do anything that would make the pain stop! It was horrible!

but Feed My Starving Children was amazing! We went of Monday,
our day off, and we served people. It was so rewarding. Being able
to make a difference in a family, or child's life is so wonderful to me!
It was so amazing to me that so many young people came out! We even
had to turn some of the youth away because we could only take so
many people. That fact alone shows that this generation has so much
potential!
We got there ten minutes early, and had to sign in, where they proceeded to
give us all hair nets. I was very impressed, we only had mild complaining from
the girls on that one. On the way in the joke was that i was only there for the guys.
Well, when we were all sitting down a group of guys walked in and everyone was like
"Amber, there are your guys" and OF COURSE they heard it...can i say embarrassing!!??
We sat through a presentation on what we were doing, and the cause behind it.
We were then off to the work room. They gave us a demonstration, and during it Lonna
got my attention and said i should be standing on the other side, i didn't get it, and then she
pointed out that that was were the guys were!! So me, being well me went over there just for the kicks. Reichert and i started off with putting stickers on bags, while the rest of the group bagged food. They had to make up cheers to get refills or bags, or boxes and any time it was Stone Church
people Reichert and i would look at each other and just laugh. They were the loudest
group in there! SHOCKING i know! lol Finally Reichert and i made our way into the food area!
It was fun there! Especially since there were more people! But Lonna allowed me to seal the bags, after the food was put in them. All you have to do is place the bag on this machine and press down,
not that hard right? Well i didn't think so either, so i was going at it, doing a good job. I would
seal the bag and then throw it onto the table to be boxed. I was going about that when all
of a sudden i see the contents of a bag all over the table...GREAT i screwed one up.
it was bad, we just cleared it off and refilled it a little. Well i did this another 2 times.
man did i feel stupid!! lol
But we were finally done and it was time to pray over the food then go back for a final good-bye meeting. Where basically they ask for money. Well when everyone was still coming in to the good-bye meeting, someone was talking to those "guy's" pastor, well we found out that they are from Minnesota! Are you serious?!?! that is so unfair!! becuase one of those guys was pretty cute, if
i do say so myself!! Lol
We were done and walking back to the bus and i commented on how cute that guy was, but it was a bummer that he lived in Minnesota, and P.erik in all of his niceness said back "well the long distance thing is YOUR thing!" haha funny P. Erik.
Then we went to the mall. and that brings us full circle to the ride home where my back hurt!

wow this one was long!! Sorry!

So i am in Colleg Prep writting class right now, and apparently i can get onto blogger.
i tried to get onto Twitter, but it took forever to load, so i quit! lol
i guess i should update this thing a little more about what's going on.

In CPW (college prep writting) we are writting a narative about our lives.
One life changing event. and although i wanted to write about all these different things,
the only thing i found myself writting about was Cassie's death.
I don't want to dwell on that though. it is in God's hands and I can't
really change anything, so....

I started off the year of 2009 with a week of prayer and fasting.
and although it was hard, well the fasting part. it was rewarding.
I could feel God on a daily basis, and felt that changes He is making.
I ended my week of fasting by going to Giordano's pizza! thank you lonna!
This year i am making it appoint to get closer to God. I am not going to sit
and wait for God, and not do anything i am going to get off my butt and chase
after Him like i have never chased after anything in my life.

This next year is going to be very interesting. A chapter of my life is going
to be closing, but a whole new one is going to be opened up to me.
Gradauting from high school is the one that i have been talking
about since my first day freshman year, and now it is right around
the corner. Although i can not wait to leave i am scared. High school
is sceure. and now i am jumping out into a whole world of unsecure things.

This year i hope to:

• read the whole bible through.
• fix the relationship with my mother
• go to a deeper place with God
• move on from past relationships
• write a letter to everyone who has made a difference in my life
• come to better terms with being adopted (i have come a long way, but that journey is still not over)

yeah i think that is it.

snowed in

Yesterday was my first day of finals. yippee!! haha and after that i had made plans to go to a family from the churches house she the mom could dye my hair!! i was so excited! so i get there and we are just talking and the mom is dyeing my hair, and then it starts to snow. No big deal I think. then i realize that it is coming down really hard and fast!! Her sister comes over to drop off some food and tells me that the roads are horrible. GREAT!! i call my dad to see what he wants me to do. It was 4:00 p.m. by then, i got there at 1:00 p.m. He tells me to come home, i thought he was crazy but was not about to fight with him. I tell the family that if i die i am coming back!! I get not even 5 blocks from their house and i have fish tailed like 3 times, ending up in the other lane of traffic, i call my mommy tell her i'm scared to drive home and she tells me to go back and they will pick me up later. I ended up staying at this house from 1:00p.m. until 8:00 p.m. it was ridiculous! but i had so much fun! my dad finally comes, he brings my mom's car that drives better in snow. It took us an hour to get home. They live at 74 we live at 179. it usually takes me
like 30 min. i don't think i went over 25 the whole time! I was relieved to finally get home, when my mom sends me back out to get a gift for her secret Santa thing at work today. I didn't think it would be a problem since i just drove past there and the roads where fine. I get to walgreens all fine, get what i needed and started to head home. I had to cross over traffic to get to the lane i needed, thank god no one was on the road at the time because i ended up doing a 360, plus add 180 to that...so that end up to 540 degree turn really fast! i was scared!! but i had to straighten out again, so as i was trying to get in the right direction i ended up hitting black ice and flew to the right, my car stopped inches from the bar thing that keeps you from falling into a ditch. Mind you i was BARELY going 15 miles per hour the whole time. After almost hitting the bar rail, i fish tail again, and hit the curb.
i finally get straighten out and go home. going like 10 mph the rest of the way.
it was the scariest thing EVER!!
God truly protected me last night!!

Finals

This next week will be my last winter finals!! Thank GOD!!
Finals are always sooo stressful and this year didn't break the tradition.
In most of my classes i get to do projects for my finals which at first i was THRILLED
about, but then came to realize that i have had to spend the past week working on
these projects and have been up until midnight or later every night!
Today i have to finish up my last final project.
which should be easy, but it really easy.
This project has 12 different things to do and 9 out of the 12 things is
writing a one page or more essay.
and i have to say i have barely even started.
Today should be fun!

College here I come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On December 4, 2008, my life has forever changed, once again. I was accepted into Evangel University!! I got a box in the mail, and i freaked out! i ripped it open, i was scared out of my mind. I thought i still had more then a week to find out. Inside there was a shirt, and a DVD. I threw in the DVD. I was waiting, the logo came on EVANGEL UNIVERSITY...blah blah blah whatever!! and then the words that i have been waiting for since i applied came across the screen

YES! You're accepted!

I'm going to college!! I'm going to college!! I'm going to college!!